I know i dont blog anymore like i used to do. For one thing, blogspot has once again been banned and i cant see my blog. For another, my time and thoughts have become devoted to something totally different.

I dont know how to describe it. It's the amazing warm feeling with the tinge of apprehension. While on one hand I am happy, on the other I want to hold onto the feeling forever and I dont know how to make it last. Though I am learning to take one day at a time, I want to dream and smile. And even though I want this to be eternal, somehow I cant find the words to pray.

See, why I dont blog anymore. I find the words difficult to come by. It's a whole carnival of emotions i have never experienced before and i just dont know what to do with myself.

Anyhoo, back to the real world.

I am inshaAllah off to Karachi tomorrow. I'll inshaAllah meet up with Sam and Ali and if possible, will try to catch Pirates of the Carribean at cineplex. I've been told that it has been raining in Karachi so lets see how tht goes. Then inshaAllah on Sunday i'll catch a flight to Khatmandu for a workshop. I'm really looking forward to it.

No he didnt remember my birthday and yes it doesnt matter anymore.

Jane Austen wrote that there is no finer balm for the pangs of love than friendship. And I completely agree. If it wasn’t for Sadaf’s love, Sana’s considerate nature and Nubla’s thoughtfulness, my birthday would have drowned in my tears completely.

But it didn’t!!!

So whether I am in love or not, whether I am heart broken or not, I am and always will be grateful to Allah ji for being there for me and giving me friends that go out of their way to cheer me up and warm my heart with their love and concern. And even if I spend my life being grateful to Allah ji for Him and for you three, I am sure I will still not be grateful enough.

I always had this dream that if I ever fall in love, the person I love will make a big deal about my birthday. He will bring me flowers and balloons and just make the day very very magical.

I wish he remembers my birthday.